| | Wow.... I mean... Wow... Man.... God is stinking awesome.... Yeah?
God's amazing... I was just having my prayer time... And... Suddenly felt an intense feeling of God being PROUD of me... Which was incredible to me, based on the fact that... Well... I basically had just let my mind wander to much... I just.... Couldn't get over the idea that God would be so intensely proud and happy about me, despite my failings that would take a lifetime to count, not to mention commit.
God... I can't believe what love You gave and give every day... That You could love me is amazing. That You could die for me is beyond minds... But the fact that You could, beyond all my shortcomings and many failings, be proud of me... Takes my breath away and blows whatever facet of understanding I might have left, and reduces me to knees and tears...
How the heck could You be proud of me? Man... I just feel... So low each and every time I sin and shame You... Each and every time I know I disappoint You... Each and every time I slip up, no matter how "small" or "big," though I know to You there really isn't measurements...
So I randomly wrote some stuff... If you're expecting polished, well-written and rhyming verses, well... You're kinda gonna be disappointed... These are just some thoughts written down.... I really hope I can get some polish into these though, because this whole idea is really amazing to me... Me, this selfish, sinful, screw up of a human being.... And yet...
PROUD
God, I feel like nothing... God I screw up so much
And yet I feel You answer me with nothing but pride
I know this isn't me, I look at myself as dust
In all the times I fail and fall
And consider myself a bust
But through my failure and frustration
Somehow I feel Your smile
I can't believe how it's possible
But somehow; You're proud!
Jesus, how can this be?
That You would smile down on me
This wretch, this slave, this broken life
And consider me worthy of Your strife
When everything I've ever been
Is a burden to Your heart
With all of my shame and sin
Yet I still feel Your heart start
What love could this be?
That You could smile down on me...
"God," my soul cries out
"I'm a failure and a screw-up
My mind is a mess and my heart is corrupt
But somehow I still feel Your love
Proud
I hear that word loud
It's what You are of me
Despite all of me
What a love, what a love
What love could this be?
All I've done for You is burden You and shame You
How are You proud of this mess?
Overwhelmed by a love so powerful
It could love a wretch like me
Astounded by a pride that lives
When all I do is shame
God I don't understand this
This love You give
But I'll take it anyways
And I'll give You a life to live...
That probably means nothing to any of you... That's okay... This was more just to... Throw it out.... This was probably more for me than anyone else.... But... Comment if you so desire anyways...
Man... Jesus.... Proud of me.... That's something pretty insane... Unfathomable... |
| | Posted 5/31/2009 11:35 PM - 14 Views - 4 eProps - 2 comments
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